Sunday 26 June 2016

140 Character stories - Part 1

#Butterflies
This was the first one I wrote. It was a result of a conversation I was having with a friend. When a muse comes, you take it.


“Will I feel butterflies in my stomach again?” "No", he said. "What I haven't destroyed with my presence, I will crush with my absence"
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#Mirror
This was the second set of stories I wrote. You can submit 3 stories at a time with TTT and since I was trying to increase my writing stamina, it seemed like a good idea to do 3. Surprisingly, this wasn’t as difficult as I had imagined it to be. It was however darker than I had expected it to be

"Goodbye Ammi", she apologized to her mirror, as her wrist turned the basin red

Her hollow eyes looked for him in the mirror, trying to find herself. Goodbye unceremonious, he left her, a stranger to herself


Blowing a kiss in the mirror, she felt beautiful. She won’t let a ‘concerned’ neighbor tell all of curves that she wasn’t
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#Box
This was story set #3. Again, I had it quite easy with this one. Maybe it was the fact that I am living out of boxes right now or the fact that I feel so deeply about never being able to compartmentalize my life. Either ways, made for a fun writing project

House was full of boxes. Her life was in squares and his in circles. Love resided between mismatched corners.

As her husband called out her name, she snapped the lid shut tight. She could no more let memories of him out of the box.

Looking at her list she realized he didn’t check any of the boxes, except the one that said butterflies.
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#Colors
Writing set #4. This was tricky. My first story was about the Stanford Rape and the second one about domestic violence. I wasn’t sure if my writing was getting the message across but I did it anyway. My small contribution to a much larger debate. Third one was just me being cheesy

For the first time, behind the dumpster, she saw colors. His was red, drunk on power, while hers was beige, in fear

She painted their future with the 7 colors of the rainbow. She didn’t know the dominant color in her life would be the blue of her bruises

He watched her as she talked animatedly. For the first time he noticed the color of her eyes. They were blue with a speck of love
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#Hope
Writing set #5. Never have I struggled with writing as much as on this topic. The word had me stumped for a good two days and I think it is more than evident in my writing. Not happy with the end product but my brain currently refuses to process anything that I could attach to this word. Calling this one a bad day and accepting it as a writer’s block

“You knew you were vulnerable and he was bad news. Why would you give him all of you?” she asked angrily. “Hope” came the answer from within

“Tell me what you need?” “A smile, a hug, hope and a way to mend my heart”, she replied ruefully.

“Ma, what does hope feel like?” she the 6 year old looking at her father’s picture adorned with a garland. “A lot like your hug”

Sunday 12 June 2016

Birthday Blog

All those who know me, know that I've had, for the lack of a better word, a motherfucker of a year. So this year on my birthday, I’ve decided to make a few conscious decisions. After all, how long can I keep saying a year older, none the wiser? This is to getting wiser
  • I will treat myself kindly. There are so many things I wouldn't let my friends say or do to themselves. I will show myself the same consideration
  • I will cut out people who don't bring me happiness. Over the past year I've let a bunch of toxic people dictate my self worth. In all honesty, you don't deserve even 1% of the importance I've given you in my life. Really, goodbye
  • I will forgive people who knew nothing of my battles and chose to judge me and/ or laugh at me. It wasn't their fault. To an outsider it must've seemed like erratic behavior. Do I wish people had a little more kindness in their heart to make place for other people’s battles? Yes, I do. But it doesn't mean I expect that at all. I know better than that
  • I will forgive people who knew of my battles and chose to walk away. I think that's a spectacularly smart choice and not everyone can make that call. The fact that you could, I salute you. Should you expect me to be there for you if misfortunes befall? I wouldn't stake my life on it
  • I will no more make excuses for people who knew of my battles and chose to cause me more unhappiness. If instead of support in this phase, your words and actions have caused me more pain, I'm done making excuses for your presence in my life. I must have to be a special cause of stupid to continue. Please check yourselves out of my life. Your stay was appreciated but you've overstayed your welcome now
  • A lot of people stood by me at my lowest. They picked up the pieces after the hurricane destruction I brought with me and still chose to fight this out with me. They reminded me every day that I was loved and there was a reason I was fighting. For that, I will forever be indebted. You know who you are and, God forbid, if there ever is a cloudy day, I'll be there for you till the sun doesn't start dancing to our favorite songs
  • Beginning with restoring my back to full functionality, I will give my health utmost importance. I haven't been a 100% in a long time. It's time to rebuild the pieces and bring to the world a better, more complete version of myself
  •  Over the two years I have neither danced nor cooked as much as I would've liked. Dancing and cooking have always been my passion and I will pursue these with utmost honesty. I might've forgotten to prioritize them but I won't anymore
  • But most of all, I promise myself happiness. There is enough fucked up bullshit happening around me and enough people bringing me down. I do not need to add to this list. No. I will choose me from now on, every single time, and do exactly what I want. If in doing so I hurt you, I'm sorry. I truly am. But I need me right now and that's how I'd like to play it

Disclaimer: Over the past couple days I have had people sound more concerned than they really need to be about this post. It was a bad year coupled with a back injury and a lot of my "battle" has come from that. I'm extremely touched by all the concern everyone has shown me but I am doing well, thank you! This was just my attempt to cut out the drama for my birthday