What should have been my Season's Greetings

There are a very few things am proud of, one of them being the fact that I have owned up to probably everything I have done in my life. Somehow, in my second year in Manchester, I realized nothing good could possibly come of pretending to be someone I was not. It was simple, I wasn’t a wild child but I loved my vices and I loved the scandals these vices brought with them.

I think one of the reasons why accepting these events was easy was that I had the most amazingly understanding friends. They all realized this was who I was and accepted and (some even) adored me for the way I lived life. It stopped being about my mere existence from one day to the other but about what more had life to offer (In no way should this statement be taken to imply encouragement of risqué lifestyle. That call is yours and yours alone). I had decided when I left Manchester I should be able to say ‘been there, done that’ without regrets.

Sadly, some regrets I cannot control. Apparently living your life the way you want brings with it difficult choices to be made. Have I been selfish? I would say yes! But then if I had to live my life the way someone else saw it, I wouldn’t be living my life now, would I? However, after living it up for two years I have come to the conclusion that at 23, my life as I know it had to undergo some changes.

The good thing about UK was that no one cared. Somehow, my business was just that, my business. In India however, that is never the case. Never before have I seen so much interest sparked in others by what I was doing. Being under scrutiny the whole day would send anyone into overdrive and I’m no different. It made me look at my life with a fresh perspective and I realized that I had now amassed more scandals in my life than “Rakhi ka Insaaf”. Probably now is a good time to start getting rid of the skeletons in my closet and to accept that my life in UK is a life I left behind a long time ago.

So this 31st when I begin my new year, my new year’s resolution is to remain scandal free in 2011. Anyone who witnessed my nye last time knows that when I say “begin my new year scandal free”, I mean the end of any and every complications. To all those who have been a part of my life and its exciting times, I guess this is the end of the road for us. It’s a new year, a new me and a spanking new clutter free life for me. Your stay in my life (in most cases) was appreciated but as of now I want you to leave,kthxbai! And to all my friends I love nonetheless, wish you a Merry X’mas and a Scandal – Free New Year, much love xx